I am no longer facebook friends with my former best-friend (I guess I can use former now). I discovered this when I tried to tag her in a funny post that only she and I would get.
I have been rather apathetic throughout the past 8 months of not speaking and had convinced myself that I didn't care that we were no longer friends. The sick feeling in my stomach and lump in my throat betrays my supposed indifference.
Why should something as insignificant as a facebook friendship matter so much? Perhaps because as long as we were still facebook friends, there was still hope. I shouldn't be upset. I wasn't going to reach out to her. I had done it too many times and felt that for once in our 22 year friendship, she should make the effort to maintain or reignite the friendship. I guess I just wasn't worth it.